So I am officially trying to climax and end Crystal Palace 4 right now but I got stuck because I had never discussed this part with Kate and am not in a position to contact her. Instead, I got ahold of Gianna, who I hadn't had a phone conversation with for years, so between coming up with some funny little details and ways to get from point a to point c we caught up and reminisced, and it was a lot of fun.
Then she mentioned that she still had a drawing of Tilly I did, hung up on her wall. And I was like "omg, Tilly..." and was all smiles. Nobody probably thinks that I have any interest in Tilly & Jo, but I actually do. It's just very difficult to imagine a time when I sit down and do a light little YA novella about plane-hopping orphans, you know? I'd like to figure it out, though. No rush.
Anyway, and then there's He's There. I haven't been able to focus on it. I have less than a page of CH49, and I think the loss of focus has been that I'm concerned that I don't have a job yet and it's complicated by the fact that I should be looking for an internship which would make me have to quit the job as soon as a month from now, which wouldn't look good on my resume, so then I have to wonder if it's socially/financially acceptable to wing it with my savings next month. This doesn't have to do with writing, I know...
But hey, in the mean time, I have been talking to myself about Erik. I always find that it helps to clarify what I think I understand about him. It's almost too convenient, though, the way that it all fell together with his issues of schizophrenia, control, anger, insomnia, self-afflicted pain... Also interesting how Lily deals with a similar web of side-effects from having to deal with him. He's... what's the word?... toxic?
I'll try to write soon and just calm down about the job. I'm waiting for an important email that might help me decide whether right now I ought to just go for a simple thing and leave the internship for another term.
♥,
J
Then she mentioned that she still had a drawing of Tilly I did, hung up on her wall. And I was like "omg, Tilly..." and was all smiles. Nobody probably thinks that I have any interest in Tilly & Jo, but I actually do. It's just very difficult to imagine a time when I sit down and do a light little YA novella about plane-hopping orphans, you know? I'd like to figure it out, though. No rush.
Anyway, and then there's He's There. I haven't been able to focus on it. I have less than a page of CH49, and I think the loss of focus has been that I'm concerned that I don't have a job yet and it's complicated by the fact that I should be looking for an internship which would make me have to quit the job as soon as a month from now, which wouldn't look good on my resume, so then I have to wonder if it's socially/financially acceptable to wing it with my savings next month. This doesn't have to do with writing, I know...
But hey, in the mean time, I have been talking to myself about Erik. I always find that it helps to clarify what I think I understand about him. It's almost too convenient, though, the way that it all fell together with his issues of schizophrenia, control, anger, insomnia, self-afflicted pain... Also interesting how Lily deals with a similar web of side-effects from having to deal with him. He's... what's the word?... toxic?
I'll try to write soon and just calm down about the job. I'm waiting for an important email that might help me decide whether right now I ought to just go for a simple thing and leave the internship for another term.
♥,
J
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