As Lily says in chapter five, it is preposterous that a girl should think of someone so relentlessly, and in this case it is me thinking about the whole lot of them, more than I probably ever have. I thought I was going to take a break this month and write Adventures in Wonderland fanfiction, and instead, here I am. Just thinking about it everyyy singlleeee dayyy, whether or not I write a thing.

But last night I did write! In fact, I spruced up three pages and wrote two more! I got the first half of chapter five done and should soon enjoy writing about Halloween night~~. In draft one, Mariam was Thing 1 from Dr. Seuss (but Lily said she looked more like an oompa loompa for a maraschino cherry factory.) In draft two, she's a sexy lobster, but Lily still thinks she looks like a maraschino oompa loompa, so it all works out.

Anyhoo, I've shared what's available for draft two with some fabulous friends of mine who live far, far away and are older and wiser and more experienced with publishing, and it comes as no surprise that their advise has been exactly what I needed to feel confident with revisions. I mean, they gave me substantial suggestions without making me feel like I need to start from scratch all over again, and I rather got the feeling that I had building blocks for success instead of a pile of-- well, you know.

And then Emily finally finished the story in its whole after a very busy time studying abroad, and she was happy with it and trying to give me advise to make the last chapter even stronger, but it was going way over my head and for the next 24 hours I suppose I had done too much thinking. I got two migraines and was bed-ridden and moaning about "the light!". Even now, if I see even a speck of static in my vision, I cower away from screens and pray to nonexistent gods that I'll be okay.

Anyway, the bigger thing that I'm trying to redo and interweave from now on is that Lily's school's Fall production is now A Midsummer Night's Dream, so I pulled out my copy from high school that I technically stole because I never gave it back. I'm going to have a read again just to get more familiar again, and then I might peruse some adaptations for further inspiration. I've always enjoyed this play, though. I'm having Mariam and Lily be Titania's fairies, which is rather like being in the corps de ballet together, but there are a number of other ideas that I thought of regarding Lily's relationship with this piece, as well as "Erik"'s, and then how they interact with it being the piece. To say the least, I think Lily would have wished to have the bravery to play Titania, and "Erik" would be the only one who made little comments about her worthiness of the role, but I don't even want to say anything more! It's a surprise.

Now... from this point on, I'm going to do like I have been advised to screenwrite, which is to carry on as though the change I want is already in affect through and through, so anyone reading (Kate~~)... don't be confused that she suddenly talks about these things instead of about Vivian anymore. I'll go through the rest when I'm ready and make changes, but they won't be sent to anyone for a little while.

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I mean this is how one knows they're a writer.

It doesn't have to do with how good you are at writing, because *shifts eyes* I'm not perfect;
it has to do with never getting bored with it, and feeling complete when you are working towards something.
Likewise, empty when you are not.

Ugh, I don't want to get up and go to work. Make them prep their own pepperonis.

J