This just ended up being what I wrote. It's somewhat
1.) Shmucky
2.) Self-involved
3.) Bragging

But...it's my journal. >:O

I'm working towards a scholarship due on April 2nd and need letters of recommendation. I've contacted two of my teachers so far, one was a student-teacher from English that I really appreciated, the other was my film teacher who graded me much easier than he should have. I've been emailing both, and visited my film teacher today. While I was catching up with him, he said that regardless of the film aspect, I will definitely be able to make a fine living off of writing. He says I'd be a great film critic, that my movie reviews for that class were the best he'd ever read. Nuts! I didn't believe him, but why would he lie?

I now know exactly what needs to be taken before I can transfer. 3 more math classes, 1 more English, 5 science, 5 social science, and 5 art. Once I save up my money, I can probably afford three classes per term.

He's There is so incredibly close to 100 pages. In fact, it's 102 in arial font, what I'd normally write in, but with this story, I prefer times new roman.

He's There also has 19 people who have favorited it. Just yesterday I got a lovely review from a reader who says it's her favorite story on ff.net. Mamamia. She also doesn't mind the "slow" pace, and enjoys it for the same reasons that I make it that way. Moreover, it has 12 people who have it on email alert. Sometimes it's easy to put something on alert, but when it's a lengthy novel which I take very seriously, and requires time to read and understand, it's total ecstasy when somebody's willing to go through it all and keep up with it despite those elements. Furthermore, this is the only story which is like this: having a group of fans that weekly give input. It's crazy. I can't even stop thanking them.

I cannot even fathom how Luna could choose to cosplay a character that is mine. Cosplay's just sorta the kind of thing you do for characters of real works, that're successful, that've been proven legit. I guess her cosplaying makes me feel like Tilly has become legit. I think I don't look like I appreciate it nearly as much as I do, because I have trouble knowing how to react when people do flattering things. I just know that she's been such a supporter of Tilly & Jo, though I do acknowledge a cute little fan I have named Kevin that I sometimes talk to. He's 13 and lives in Nevada, he likes T&J too.

I don't have serious success, or a serious fan-following. I would rather have one in real life than the internet. I don't. But what I do have is friends, all excited about a different project. When I do something for a particular project, I think of them and make sure that they're going to like whatever it is, almost like I'm writing it for them.

I have so many fun projects that I know how to balance and be productive on now. It COULD be a phase, I could go through another cycle of problems, but I feel at the very least extremely confident in the schedule I came up with and knowing how to carry things out. When I was younger, even a year ago from now, I had trouble knowing what to do.

So yeah, me being optimistic, I know it's weird.