I can't help it!! I try to tell myself to stay away from this journal until I have something very useful to say, but I usually can't.

I've been really frustrated lately that I can't get the CP2 site done fast enough. It's been about a month so far since I decided to make it and even though I know my real life interferences are understandable, I'm disappointed with myself. For a split second this morning, I considered I had ADD until I realized that sounded ridiculous and I should not be blaming my shortcomings on disorders I have never been diagnosed with.

But it all stems from an underestimating of myself that I will not to be able to juggle a certain amount of things, "therefore I should just focus on this right here." So, with the site taking a while, I have put everything else right now and we are almost done with a 1/6th of 2009, which is a pathetic and overly nervous way to put it.

But on the bright side, I'm almost done with the profiles, I just have to do Nick and Roseanne, the animals. After that, I have a few illustration sketches to turn into computer versions and then I will just need to finish the layout design's final draft and type one more menu page.

And... yeah... Kate and I have done 4 parts of "He's Having My Baby", and that's always fun...

I think I'm just stressed that we've let another 2 months by since we wrote a part for CP3 and I really wanna be into that again, I just can't flood my brain with thoughts of the present plotline when I need to go back to the sequel and dedicate all of myself to presenting this site. After all, though I stress you can read the third without previous immersion, I really would prefer that people started at the real beginning and had a better appreciation of our characters. How many people know that Cosmo shot Roger and was the real savior of the movie?! How many know that Crystallina is so easily won over by villainous octopus men? How many know what kind of things Akira and I argue about when we're having long car trips?! All important.

I'm very tempted to post something or other that I've drawn here but I just really really REALLY want all my efforts to be a surprise for everyone and for them to see the site and go "wowwww". Hehhh.


And, I still haven't forgotten Tilly & Jo. I'm hoping that by the time Spring hits the air, the site will be done, CP3 will be caught up on, and the sun will peak out and inspire me to continue restarting. If I just keep myself working on that, it will get so deep there's no way I will lose interest...right? Novella. Remember that, Jennifer! It's a novella and you can have it done this year. You know exactly what you are doing.

Well... I think I need to wrap this up now. I'm at school so I have a few things to take care of before I get on the bus...


Cya,
-Bow