Every single thing that is important to me. I never found a job all summer and now the manager at the place I might get into says she'll have to wait until Wednesday to review my application. I was supposed to do independent study this term, which is the only option to get my last three credits when I live two hours away from campus, but it feels like my teacher who I always thought had such a good bond with me has moved on. She never told me "no", but she's been so busy that I had to contact her twice just to get a response about how she must meet an important deadline before she talks about my study with me. She hasn't contacted me again, and class starts tomorrow for everybody else. It may not start for me, but I needed to at least be registered by now, and with plans for how to go about this already approved by her. So my education is on hold, and my financial security is on hold.
Things like this have made it really hard to focus and push through with my novel when normally, if this weren't such a special occasion where it was about to end, I'd put it down for a while. Working on anything for an entire summer is enough. I got drained out. I'm so drained out, I even picture Lily reclining in a chair after the whole ordeal, just going "so yeah, all that stuff happened and I'm scarred forever. The end..."
heheheheheh
Actually, I've been so concerned that I'm going to run out of money that I offered commissions and now have four clients in line. I've been treating it like a job and putting in more quality than I would with my own work, so of course that has kept me from really writing... but I thought about doing it today... attempting to finish.
I might as well add, now that I'm turning this into a personal entry, that I'm totally open to adding more clients to the list, since I don't even know if I'll have a job soon. So far I have a cumulative ~$100 coming my way, and it's given me a sense of security when it comes to just... picking something up for dinner. So I'd appreciate a commission from anyone here seeing this, if you've enjoyed my art at all. :) I can do story "book" covers, digital illustrations, and such, but my cheapest work is just traditional sketches, and they start around $10. If you don't have an account here to comment, you can email me at torturedfruit865@yahoo.com.
Well, I'm going to head home and try to take advantage of the silence. I'll try to write.
Things like this have made it really hard to focus and push through with my novel when normally, if this weren't such a special occasion where it was about to end, I'd put it down for a while. Working on anything for an entire summer is enough. I got drained out. I'm so drained out, I even picture Lily reclining in a chair after the whole ordeal, just going "so yeah, all that stuff happened and I'm scarred forever. The end..."
heheheheheh
Actually, I've been so concerned that I'm going to run out of money that I offered commissions and now have four clients in line. I've been treating it like a job and putting in more quality than I would with my own work, so of course that has kept me from really writing... but I thought about doing it today... attempting to finish.
I might as well add, now that I'm turning this into a personal entry, that I'm totally open to adding more clients to the list, since I don't even know if I'll have a job soon. So far I have a cumulative ~$100 coming my way, and it's given me a sense of security when it comes to just... picking something up for dinner. So I'd appreciate a commission from anyone here seeing this, if you've enjoyed my art at all. :) I can do story "book" covers, digital illustrations, and such, but my cheapest work is just traditional sketches, and they start around $10. If you don't have an account here to comment, you can email me at torturedfruit865@yahoo.com.
Well, I'm going to head home and try to take advantage of the silence. I'll try to write.
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