Okay, before I begin, did anyone else notice that LJ switched the locations of the "delete entry" and "save entry"? Why ever would they do that? Yesterday, I was at my personal journal trying to update my Max Schreck gallery post, and I accidentally deleted the whole thing and had to go back to the "ghost page", and remake it with that as a reference.

Anyway, clearly I haven't been updating here. I've kind of just been in a summer haze, too hot and correspondingly tired to get anything done. It's always been my worst creative season because I kind of get a type of seasonal depression. Some people can't stand winter and having it be cloudy outside every day, but I can't stand too much heat and sun. And this week has been awful. Today and yesterday are 100 degrees (although for some reason the apartment is staying very bearable today, thank Jesus.)

Finally, I had gotten done so little this summer that guilt was eating me, and I wasn't helping myself with ignoring summer by not-writing, so I made a schedule that I actually felt determined to carry through with. I want to have a chapter of HT each week and to finish a long hiatus'd Adventures in Wonderland short story, Trying Tuesday.

In as few words as possible, Nosferatu has not been something I've been overly into because of a fan on Tumblr who hasn't been very nice. It was stressing me out a lot, so I called it quits. Nosferatu in Love has been collecting cobwebs. But I'm hoping when Autumn starts to look pretty Halloween-y, that it'll be a lot of fun to work on. And I'll have been seeing my favorite teacher who knows all about my Nosey-addiction, so just her presence will be inspiring.

In the mean time, I don't know, I just... I've spent a lot of time fangirling about vampires and generally dark stuff, and when I realized I needed a break, a hopeless wave of nostalgia hit me and I missed Adventures in Wonderland. I missed my home. I missed all the thoughts I had about their world, and of Hatter and Hare, while I was in the backyard, or sitting on the front deck among my mom's plants, or drinking tea at the kitchen bar. I almost worried that AIW left with my home, because I was so happy and inspired there and when moving into an apartment, things got to feel very claustrophobic and different. So many things feel missing now that I feel like I want to put something together that was broken. So, I wandered back to AIW, posted at aiwchuckleheads, unblocked someone I no longer had hard feelings for, and, very luckily and unexpectedly, met this sweet and interesting girl on Tumblr who is an AIW fan, but she also runs a wonderful Alice in Wonderland blog called She Still Haunts Me Phantomwise. She inspired me to learn a little more about Lewis Carroll, and I've told her a bit about Max Schreck, so it's been kind of healing having a positive person write his name, and talk about all kinds of things we both like, like the Disney parks and Phantom of the Opera. I showed her a bootleg recording of Reece Holland (who played Hare in AIW) playing Raoul opposite Michael Crawford as the Phantom, speaking of which, and she was thrilled!

So, as I told you, I'm working on a fanfic again, and I was even laughing about it this morning. I decided that I would tweak my ritual, and instead of typing/translating my all German biography about Mr. Schreck, I would be writing Trying Tuesday. I will post it after this update!

And then there's He's There, which sounded like it'd been forgotten, but it hasn't, I'm just having a little trouble. By Sunday, I should have chapters 48 and 49 finished, and I'll continue from there, even though I neglected to write chapters 43 - 47 (though truthfully, 43 and 44 do have a number of pages written that I don't know if I'll edit or even keep.) I'm getting more into writing it as I find myself more frustrated, funny enough. And you'll think it hilarious what I'm using as inspiration -- The Twilight Series. I downloaded all the movies, and I'm going to watch them just to remember how not to make a dramatic YA romance set in the Pacific Northwest. But to remember what it's like to have your cake and expect to eat it. I don't know, it just works for me right now. XD

My question to those who read He's There is this, though: do you want me to post chapter 48 onward? Do you care that you're missing some of the plot? I wouldn't post it publicly, but if you want to know what I'm doing under cut, I would oblige, because I like feedback.

Okay, so... that's the full story. I'll feel happier once I've written more, but not yet.
-J