I don't think it's my wishful thinking, A LOT more people than before are going to my websites, and usually He's There by a landslide.

It's just kind of weird going on to freewebs now, because my site used to be such a private place. I practically made it for p_lover and chiharunamine exclusively, and it wasn't even a fanfiction site at first. It was going to be an anime site under the name Blossom Gurl, to make pages for my favorite shows and post pictures. I really don't know when the hell I woke up with the idea to change it to Lady Bow's Fanfiction, of all things, considering all I had at the time was Serial Experiments Lain Sequel (speaking of which, that site needs SERIOUS code-fixing...) and a Fairly Oddparents... spin-off or whatever about me getting with Mr. Crocker called..*choke* Kokoro no Naka no Negai. I'm not even going to tell you what that means, but I actually finished 12 chapters of that, some of which I don't know if I have saved, but rereading it would be a hilarious journey.

During the time that I was making "Lady Bow's Fanfiction Site", I had the idea for The Staircase (which I miss, a lot, I promise), and gave that a page as well, and I remember thinking it was so cool that this stuff was actually up on the internet and I could be creative like that. I shared it around the oekaki, but yeah, mostly I just posted these for Maha and Sara. XD

I had a tiny page for Crystal Palace which was just a poster and summary of the story, not out of disinterest, just because I knew it would take a lot of research and time to work out the plot, which is still continuing on this freaking day!

Then later that year, He's There was born. Even though it was completely different and sort of like unbaked cookie dough, it was one my first stories with the oldest characters, which... I often forget, actually. I always take pleasure knowing Akira and Cosmo have been around six years, but by the end of 2010, the Phantom, Lily, and Mariam will be too, technically. Paulina won't be, lol, she's only... I guess going on three years. (wow, though) I remember this page well. It had a navbar with this crap-painting I did of the Phantom on the left, three scribbled white links on the top right, and a midi of Creep by Radiohead playing in the background. I kid you not.

I think of all my stories, this one was visited the least, which makes it even funnier that today the opposite has come about. Every blue moon someone will accidentally click on The Staircase or SELS and then leave. XD But yesterday there were 17 visitors, most going to He's There, some for comparatively long visits. This morning it already had 5 passersby. There's a lot of repeat visitors, some from places where I know I don't know people, like Illinois, or Florida. This morning, Germany and Finland. Sometimes it's hard for me to conceive that the internet goes this far even though I know what it is! So my page is on the screen of a computer in Finland - shit, what do they think?! I mostly look at these stats detached, though. In my own little world, everything is still my own thing that friends know about.

If anyone ever approached me in real life and magically knew about these characters, I would shit my pants.

"Oh yeahhhh... that's on the internet, isn't it? The real internet."

As if I may have been using placebo-internet all these years?

I can't imagine what it would be like to be published. Even one other person that I don't know having a thorough knowledge of something I wrote, or even uttering the title of the work, is NUTS to me.

I don't know where this is going, I just had a thought.

P.S. I posted chapter 37 a couple entries down in case you missed it~~ ↓