I feel like a real dumb-fuck.
Pardon the language, but it's the honest truth.

I've had 20 days so far to start planning, and haven't even started. I still have a month, but I've cut my time in half. I feel stupid. I don't know why I haven't done it. I went back into this phase of just sitting around doing nothing important all day. I don't know why I do it when I so clearly hate it by the time I realize I've done it.

It's not even the usual procrastionation, like with homework, where you don't want to do it. It's my own thing, I want to do it, I just end up empty-handed.

STARTING IT TODAY. SERIOUSLY.