So... I have not been writing lately, as you can see. The HT season is composed of 12 weeks, and I have only written 5 chapters out of the 9 weeks so far... I was reading Wooden Light yesterday and was actually laughing at parts for how bad it was... I mean it REALLY needs its own Encyclopedia Dramatica article. It is the most ridiculous SAW "fanfiction" ever... I don't know how I'm going to clean up after myself this time, and there's no possibility of starting over... I have to play the cards in my hand and focus only on making the future better...
Not only am I behind on HT, with Wooden Light and Huggle the Puppet soon to be on their way, I have three websites that need making.
The main Lady Bow's Original Story & Fanfiction (which is almost done)
Wooden Light v5..
...And I have decided to begin an ambitious project for He's There v7 which will have a lot of graphics and look like a movie advertisement website. Obviously this isn't necessary... but it's actually the excitement factor that's pushing me to do it.
What's keeping me from working as hard as I should lately?
It's not work. I work 2 days a week.
It's not really school... although I do get my ration of textbook reading, and 2 midterms are coming up...
Honestly? It's distraction by real life. I come home and would rather lay around, keep track of the elections (which are now over, thank God), and relive/overthink things that happened to me. I feel embarrassed to even mention it here--
Two boys are pursuing me and I have never felt so much pressure. The power to hurt someone's feelings in my hands is just too much, and the possibility of dating another... I've just been extremely distracted and have had to be "Jennifer" a lot instead of "Lily" or the like. Some say this is a good thing, because real life is more important, but... I guess I am a weirdo writer, who actually appreciates having no life sometimes and being able to give it all to her work. Me + life + writing = not enough coffee. (unless she wants to get heartburn)
Am I missing the simplistic days I've had for a year now? Do I want to shoo away the people in my life and lock myself in my Christmas light infested room and light candles and fall back on my futon with laptop? Sometimes.
A real writer has to have that equation, though. Learn to deal with it.
Not only am I behind on HT, with Wooden Light and Huggle the Puppet soon to be on their way, I have three websites that need making.
The main Lady Bow's Original Story & Fanfiction (which is almost done)
Wooden Light v5..
...And I have decided to begin an ambitious project for He's There v7 which will have a lot of graphics and look like a movie advertisement website. Obviously this isn't necessary... but it's actually the excitement factor that's pushing me to do it.
What's keeping me from working as hard as I should lately?
It's not work. I work 2 days a week.
It's not really school... although I do get my ration of textbook reading, and 2 midterms are coming up...
Honestly? It's distraction by real life. I come home and would rather lay around, keep track of the elections (which are now over, thank God), and relive/overthink things that happened to me. I feel embarrassed to even mention it here--
Two boys are pursuing me and I have never felt so much pressure. The power to hurt someone's feelings in my hands is just too much, and the possibility of dating another... I've just been extremely distracted and have had to be "Jennifer" a lot instead of "Lily" or the like. Some say this is a good thing, because real life is more important, but... I guess I am a weirdo writer, who actually appreciates having no life sometimes and being able to give it all to her work. Me + life + writing = not enough coffee. (unless she wants to get heartburn)
Am I missing the simplistic days I've had for a year now? Do I want to shoo away the people in my life and lock myself in my Christmas light infested room and light candles and fall back on my futon with laptop? Sometimes.
A real writer has to have that equation, though. Learn to deal with it.
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