I'm not the hugest fan of using my journal to talk about what I haven't gotten done, but damn if my lagging isn't the case. I thought I could lay to rest Crystal Palace 2 and now I have a whole 'nother "adventure". On the bright side, revising is about half done, and I'm having fun with it. But yeah, it's just...AGHGHH. I just seem to be able to finish only 3-4 parts maximum a day, and I have actually written 11 extra pages so far of accumulated insertions. Mostly dialogue. I don't know how to describe how I feel about everything though, being both happy that the script is SO much better after revisions, and annoyed that I can't be focusing on CP3 catch-up. But then excited that I will be sending the script to someone of such importance. But bothered that in the scope of things, I have barely gotten a thing done. A year ago from now, I was putting He's There on a hiatus after working on it, unhindered by anything, since September. Between the beginning of the new year and the end of March, I would've written 7-8 chapters, about 50 pages.

And I knowwww what you're going to say. "Jennifer, you're just having a little downwards line in your graph of life. You had a peak of inspiration and it will happen again. In between that, it's completely natural to be distracted with real life or working at a slower rate." But... I'm telling you. You try having a peak like that and feeling any different during an intermission. Sometimes feelings eclipse reason.

Lol and of course, there's the whole fanfiction stuff going on. Ultra-lulz there. We now have three stories bouncing about. He's Having My Baby, a road-trip one that Alice and I are gonna do, and Kate agreed that after HHMB, we could do the one where Older!Alice and Hare fight over Hatter which I made a freaking poster for already- { link } If I'm doing all of these over aim with them, how in hell will we get to CP3? Well, the only logical conclusion is that something must be cut, and if CP3 can't be cut, then it has to be one of the fanfics.

This is where I really wish I didn't have to sleep at night.

I sound a little like PL, don't I. XD Really though. I wish I could make a cup of coffee and put a magical drug in it that looks like a tictac or something that would make it so I didn't need to rest for a few days. And I'd give it to Kate too. And then we'd finish HHMB in less than a week, no, scratch that, in 30 seconds, because we'd be so fast, like Spiderman. And the story would be awesome, and then I'd send the drug to Alice through the mail. And she'd start taking it, and she'd be like "JENNIFER, HEYYYY I GOT ALL MY BIO HOMEWORK DONE AND I WARED JAMES OUT AND NOW I WANNA WRITE, HEY LETS HAVE TEA PARTIES WHILE WE WRITE." And we'll be so full of energy that we can walk to each other's houses and have tea while constructing elaborate, but brilliant, ideas for the road trip with me and her and Hatter and Hare and the Tweedles. And Rabbit, who's in love with her. And if somebody asked how the bloody fuck we did it, I'd just say tea. If you love it enough, it has magical properties.

And then between writing, we would go to Wonderland-purgatory and suddenly understand the meaning of life and Hatter and Hare spirits will send us brain signals that mean we just had the most awesome metaphysical sex ever. In the astral planes. Where there are no crotches, just magic orbs of light. The truth is that when the sun rises and makes the sky so brilliant, it's because someone in the astral planes is having an orgasm.

I have no clue what the hell I'm going on about. I think I'm delirious from drinking way more coffee than I usually do, working on nothing but the script, and going to work, where I talk with the baker and she reveals to me all of the secrets of making everything in the display case.

Tonight, I solemnly swear that I will 1. Read my Art 206 homework. 2. Do my Math 65 homework. 3. Revise parts 23-27 of CP2. 4. Make plans with Alice for our fanfiction. 5. Email the Jury Duty Office and tell them "no way Jose, I am a full time student".