*pretends she hasn't been gone for seven months*
My. Goodness.
The new year started with a lot of writing, and there continues to be lots of it. Juggling more than one project, churning out ten pages a day, working on my first fanfic that exceeds a hundred pages...! It's happening!
What isn't happening: most anything else. I mean I'm slowly dragging along on a cosplay, but in general I keep having a thought like "wait, isn't there something I should be posting on instagram", "have I nothing for deviantart?!" Tumblr?! And then I realize, no, there's nothing to post because I'm not creating a ton of visual stuff. Part of that may be that the hassle of making digital art is causing me to give up before I start, as I can't afford a good drawing tablet and am a bit tired of finger painting on the, erm, tablet-tablet. Apparently I could upgrade to one that has a little pencil on it in case "being an artist" is something I'd like to do, but it's $600.
I'm over tumblr. I think that may have started when my computer crashed every time I tried to make cool gifsets on CS4, and ended when a group of teenagers trolled me for having a fan blog with some content that they didn't like. On top of either general silence or extremely underwhelming content in fandoms I wished were more lively.
The lesson that I think really sunk in for me in the past year has been: do things that offer you sustainable happiness, independent of the response you get from others, and stop doing things that end up with you feeling angsty or unappreciated. Running tumblr blogs that I put a lot of work into for almost no response except being trolled by teenagers, for example... maybe something I should chuck over my shoulder for the time being. I deserve better than that. In a way, I guess you could say for now that I've broken up with fandoms (definitely that one) so that I can be single for a while. lol
Coinciding with this decision was the realization that when I'm not even planning to present a work, post it online, or anticipate a response, I create work that is better, and more of it. That is, in fact, why I entered the New Year on a writing streak that continues to now: over the holidays, I wanted to write a story for a friend, just them, and it was one of the most fun things I'd done in a long time. The content pouring out of my fingertips made me laugh, and made her laugh, and that was the only thing that mattered.
Anyway, I'll make some individual posts about specific projects, before this gets any longer. Thanks for reading? Not even sure who's reading? Nobody? Doesn't matter.
-J
My. Goodness.
The new year started with a lot of writing, and there continues to be lots of it. Juggling more than one project, churning out ten pages a day, working on my first fanfic that exceeds a hundred pages...! It's happening!
What isn't happening: most anything else. I mean I'm slowly dragging along on a cosplay, but in general I keep having a thought like "wait, isn't there something I should be posting on instagram", "have I nothing for deviantart?!" Tumblr?! And then I realize, no, there's nothing to post because I'm not creating a ton of visual stuff. Part of that may be that the hassle of making digital art is causing me to give up before I start, as I can't afford a good drawing tablet and am a bit tired of finger painting on the, erm, tablet-tablet. Apparently I could upgrade to one that has a little pencil on it in case "being an artist" is something I'd like to do, but it's $600.
I'm over tumblr. I think that may have started when my computer crashed every time I tried to make cool gifsets on CS4, and ended when a group of teenagers trolled me for having a fan blog with some content that they didn't like. On top of either general silence or extremely underwhelming content in fandoms I wished were more lively.
The lesson that I think really sunk in for me in the past year has been: do things that offer you sustainable happiness, independent of the response you get from others, and stop doing things that end up with you feeling angsty or unappreciated. Running tumblr blogs that I put a lot of work into for almost no response except being trolled by teenagers, for example... maybe something I should chuck over my shoulder for the time being. I deserve better than that. In a way, I guess you could say for now that I've broken up with fandoms (definitely that one) so that I can be single for a while. lol
Coinciding with this decision was the realization that when I'm not even planning to present a work, post it online, or anticipate a response, I create work that is better, and more of it. That is, in fact, why I entered the New Year on a writing streak that continues to now: over the holidays, I wanted to write a story for a friend, just them, and it was one of the most fun things I'd done in a long time. The content pouring out of my fingertips made me laugh, and made her laugh, and that was the only thing that mattered.
Anyway, I'll make some individual posts about specific projects, before this gets any longer. Thanks for reading? Not even sure who's reading? Nobody? Doesn't matter.
-J
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