So today I made my first jab at the 2013 list: I made a CP series tumblr. However, it's not anywhere near presentable - in fact, once I'd fiddled with the layout and tried to make an introductory post, I felt lost about where to start explaining from there. I get the impression from others that they can't tell what the fuck Crystal Palace is supposed to be, and that along with everyone's dispassion for reading has caused me not to have hardly any readership. This made it difficult for me to think of how to "sell it", to be concisely informative, plus entertaining.

*throws up hands* I might just get up about pages for the movies and characters, provide links, and just dig in with random trivia, quotes, and images to familiarize anyone who stops by. And I think, though I don't know how much, that a watcher of mine is a little popular on tumblr, and she likes CP. I'm hoping she'll plug me to some effect.

Anyway, other than that... I've really gotta put it down, I think. It's not even planned from here, so that's an automatic stopper. I think I'll just use January to plan the rest of it and make a drawing here or there, but... I can't... do it anymore... unless something useful can come up in the Screenwriting class I finally made it into.

I've been trying to get in the HT mood, but I realized, for certain, how disconnected Eugene makes me feel. Just... all the stimuli that brought me closer is missing. I told you already - when I went to the dock the other day... I was there; I was under the purple sky; "Erik" could've been right behind me. When I went the other day when I was taking my car for the spin the last time that I would have it for now, the sun was setting over the river, and I remembered hanging around that dock parking lot, practicing my speeches for speech class where I could get some privacy. I felt really at peace; I felt in that zone that you have to be in to be happy and free. I just hate Eugene now, and that is enough to destroy my mood. I want to go to school at home. I want to live back there and just enter a portal to get to class or something. Two more terms. So sick of Eugene.

I'm going to have to find somewhere to go. I don't know.

Here's a list for myself in January:
1.) Re-structure chapters 43 - 47 of HT and begin writing them.
2.) Perfect the CP tumblr.
3.) Draw Kate a profile picture.
4.) Do a CP4 illustration.

Of course, number 1 will be the hardest and most time-consuming. Good luck to me, seriously.

Someone inspire me, connect with me, care, be there. Not only do I feel disconnected from the world, but from the people who used to look forward to me sharing with them.